BORDER LOG

Saturday, September 11th

How to Drive in Mexico



Mexicans Know...most of the time.

Brian McNeece

We drove across the border at Tecate and headed west toward Tijuana. I navigated my way expertly (in my opinion) past offloading trucks, through clumps of vehicles, and around gouges in the pavement. Cars suddenly streamed in from a side street. “Is there a stop sign?” I asked, swiveling in search of a view of my corner. “Well, the Mexicans seem to know what to do,” my wife answered.

My wife was remarkably calm during the short stretch through Tecate, considering she is usually clenching the armrest and applying an invisible brake as she braces for impact. Not today. Ah, she has finally come to trust my dexterous and creative driving style, I thought with satisfaction.

For about 15 miles we cruised the nearly-empty toll road, a freeway rivaling any for finish and polish. Then we headed southwest on Carretera 2000 toward Rosarito. Back to the reality of Mexican roadways. The left edge of the pavement dropped off vertically about two feet. Jagged wounds in the asphalt demanded regular evasion. School buses lumbered indecisively from lane to lane.

By now my wife was back in form, writhing to make herself and our car narrower as I swerved to avoid another pothole and at the same time threaded the needle between a water truck and a van. “Why didn’t the US buy this place?” she lamented. “It would be so much more orderly.”

“Maybe so,” I reply, “but we would be denied this diversity experience.”

A pickup loaded with too much furniture merged from the left and drifted into our lane. A pot hole prevented a rightward adjustment. My wife steeled herself for impact. Nothing happened. “Look at the other drivers,” I remarked. “Calm as salamanders. They’re not tense. As you said before, they know what to do.”

Traffic thinned out as we got past the southern edge of Tijuana. We marveled at the neat, cramped expanses of match-boxy houses marching over the hillsides and wondered how these new neighborhoods would be supplied with scarce water.

The road was now quiet. We slowed as we saw the Carretera 2000 coming to an end where it abutted the scenic road from Tijuana to Ensenada. At the last moment I saw it—a gaping hole on my right side. We dropped into it at 45 miles per hour. Wham! We both screamed.

I braked to a stop, gingerly feeling to see if the right front of the car was still intact. Seemed to be ok. I walked back to examine the monster that almost ate my car. A section of asphalt had eroded next to a section of concrete, leaving an inclined drop ending at an 8 inch vertical wall of concrete, just about like the device pole vaulters use to launch themselves over the bar.

I asked our hosts in Rosarito if they knew of the yawning, gaping, car trap lurking under the bridge like a troll. They didn’t, but this news threw them animatedly into a new conversation. “My husband is always hitting those things,” she says, as her American mate nods his head. “I don’t know why. We Mexicans know where they are. We just have a sense.” She puts her hands to her head as if to check her antennae. “A pothole is coming up, we can feel it. With my husband, it’s ‘There’s a hole…’ too late.”

“You guys in the States, everything’s perfect. The stop sign is right there, all by itself.” She holds her hands to outline its shape. “You don’t even have to look. Here, we know that there should be a stop sign on every corner, even if we don’t see it.”

“We figure, maybe there was once a stop sign there, but it got knocked down or stolen. So we slow down.”

Like Polynesian sailors who navigate by a complex and secret knowledge of the stars, currents, clouds, and marine life, Mexicans are initiated in the secret lore that keeps them safe. She must be right. When it comes to handling dangerous driving conditions, Mexican culture must cultivate the cautionary alertness that our safety measures have led us to neglect.

On Sunday, we decided to take the toll road all the way to La Rumorosa and down the Mexican version of the grade into the valley. Built two decades ago to replace a treacherous two-lane road, this freeway has tighter curves and is steeper than US planners would have allowed. As we descended, I chanced to look back up behind us, noticing that over the ledge of every curve lay a graveyard of Mexican vehicles—metal carcasses rusting and rotting in the sun.

“I guess not all the Mexicans know,” I said.
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Monday, May 10th

Got No Legs? How About a Round the World Trip on a Skateboard?


What's Your Challenge? Brian McNeece

You may have missed this one. A Turkish singer recently established a new speed record for driving a car--blind. Metin Senturk took the wheel of a 600 horsepower Ferrari F430, at Urfa airport in eastern Turkey and put the pedal to the metal

Al Pacino did something similar in the film Scent of a Woman. Playing a blind man, he accelerated and skidded through the streets of New York City with a terrified passenger telling him when to turn. Of course, that wasn’t real. It was only the movies. Mr. Sentuk, who has been blind since the age of three, listened to radio instructions from a follow car and fought off a mounting terror to attain an average speed of 182 mph.

Sure, there aren’t too many obstacles on an airport runway, but imagine the vibration and roar in a street Ferrari at 182 mph.

Sentuk’s feat is another in a remarkable string of achievements by people who in former days would be stuck in a back room somewhere and occasionally taken out like a potted plant for some air and sun. Those of us with all of our limbs and all of our senses can take inspiration from yet another circle of pioneers in pushing the limits of human achievement towards a well-earned sense of exhilaration.

How about Kevin Connally, born with no legs, who visited 15 countries in 3 months, traveling without an escort via skateboard? He also is a competitive downhill snow skier.

There have been basketball and tennis tournaments made up of paraplegics for decades.

Twice I’ve participated in the San Diego Challenged Athletes Triathlon and felt pretty puny when a guy with one full leg and arm passed me going uphill.

Some years ago IVC was visited by Tony Melendrez, a guy with no arms who played guitar with his feet. He could strum and sing with remarkable skill and ever more remarkable confidence and joy. A quick visit to YouTube showed me a pool player with no arms--sharply knocking balls into pocket with a cue stick held in his foot. A champion bowler had one good leg and small appendages for arms. Lying on his side, he put a little English on the ball and it lumbered slowly down the lane, curving just so for a strike.

Check out the bouncing break-dancers with polio, or one leg on Youtube. They take to the floor with crutches—it’s a whole new art form a combination of Olympic free exercise and the side horse in gymnastics. And the audience—most looking like gang bangers—are roaring with applause for these scrappy performers.

Paraplegic Aaron Fotheringham cruises at the skate park doing back flips (yes, in his wheel chair) and 360s on the concrete course. His latest adventure is getting a motorcycle to tow him up a 15-foot ramp. (He lands in a foam pit.)

When I was a teenager, I met a guy in San Diego who had little flappers for arms. He had his car rigged up so that he could steer with his tiny arms and adjust the radio with a stick held in his mouth. He was one of the most confident people I ever met, with several girlfriends. We used to golf at a short course at the Presidio in San Diego. He couldn’t hit the ball very far, but he could beat me on any day of the week.

Through illness, accident, or a tough hand of genetic cards to play with, some folks live their lives in electric wheelchairs. Yet despite these challenges, they’re Power Soccer athletes, spinning and juking their way around a basketball court, smashing an oversized soccer ball and screaming “Gooooooaaaaal!!!” when they score. I think I saw astrophysicist Steven Hawking sprinting for the ball in one of the video clips.

There’s actually a national team in Power Soccer, and the USA won the first World Cup in 2007. While diehard soccer fans gear up for the world’s premier soccer players in South Africa this summer, another group of athletes is getting ready for the 16-team tournament of Power Soccer in 2011. Most of these athletes need 24-hour care. They depend on other people to be dressed, fed, toileted, and put to bed. But once they strap a guard on their wheelchairs and roll onto the court, they are totally independent. Imagine that exhilaration, that feeling of triumph to hit the joystick and whip-spin around for a corner kick to a waiting teammate ready to crash the goal.

What’s your challenge? Where do you find your private triumph? And where do you find the exhilaration that powers you through your frustration?
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Wednesday, May 5th

Speech to Imperial Valley High School Students Accepted to University


April 22, 2010 College Going Initiative Rodney Auditorium/SDSU Calexico

Filaments of Caring and Knowledge by Brian McNeece

Welcome, thank you, congratulations to all. Tonight is special for me too, not only because of the honor I have of speaking to you, but because this year marks 40 years since I too received a letter of admission to a 4-year school. I remember that tingly feeling of nervous excitement at the thought of going away on my own to a new place. But I also felt some apprehension along with that excitement, and I imagine you do too.

I hope all of you have already been to the campus where you have been admitted. Of course to visit but hopefully you’ve had or will have a thorough orientation tour of what your campus offers you to make you feel more at home.

Getting comfortable, now that might be hard to do, but it’s going to be the key to your success. When you think about going away—and then you actually do it, you start to realize all the connections that you have around you that have been so important to making you who you are today.

Invisible Support—Familiar Faces

Most of you, I suspect, saw the recent film Avatar, and you’ll remember near the end when the lady anthropologist is laid on the earth to so that her soul can transfer into the body of her avatar. All the blue people plug their pony tails into the earth, and suddenly they are connected and infused with glowing light energy. So also, the earth sends out curving filaments of light energy that envelop the body of the lady. It’s a touching scene. I bring it up because you have those same energetic threads, filaments, cords, cables, sinews connecting you to your parents, friends and other support system..

Mostly invisible to you, these connections are just as real as the blood vessels, muscle fibers, and nerve networks in your body. That’s what you have surrounding you right now, as we speak, in this room.

Even before you were born, your parents were busy weaving a net of love and tenderness for you. Their smiles, their worries, their delight in having you began the long and continuous process of connecting you to them and the rest of your family. That process unfolded as you went to school and to church and to the clubs and sports teams you have joined. Layer by layer you have built these filaments, these cables and ropes that make you who you are today.

When I was in college, musical concerts often had laser light shows, and they would put a little smoke in the room so that the light could bounce off the particles in the air and you could better see it. It’s too bad we don’t have some kind of way to illuminate those connections that right now emanate from each one of you in a thick bundle of energy to all points of this valley community.

These connections include your families, your friends, of course, but even the people you barely know. People in the grocery store, the bank, the auto parts. You see them time and time again. I bring all this up because these elements in our personal landscape, both large and small, are what we miss when we go away.

These circles of support around you are a familiar tableau of your life. The routines and rhythms of your days confirm and create your identity. Inside that zone of familiarity, you have grown and achieved, to get to this spot today.

If you go away to university, and I hope many of you do, you will suddenly feel the absence of all these familiar layers of connections. Everything is new. Some of you are quite ready for this new adventure, and you tingle with a nervous, pleasant excitement as you might before a game, a race, or a performance.

But even you intrepid adventurers will miss those small routines: Mama making chilaquiles in the morning, the smell of garlic for the spaghetti, hamburgers on the barbecue. Waking up to the coffee pot, your sister singing her goofy songs. You’ll miss your brother tinkering with his motorcycle in the garage. Lots of small things bear you up in a comfortable cocoon of familiarity.

You’re a big man on campus at BUHS. A contented girl at Calexico. You walk around Central and life is good. Yes you may be a big fish in a small pond, but soon that pond is going to stagnate and you need to move forward. Yes, you go to San Diego State, and suddenly you feel like a tiny fish in a giant ocean. But in that ocean, you will have room to move and room to grow. And so much new territory to explore.

The New World

All those things you are proud of, your grades, your musical ability, your speed on the track, your jump shot, your swing of the bat—you’re going to find many people who exceed your efforts. You’ll meet amazingly intelligent and talented people.

Your family life in which you are so relaxed and so loved—you won’t get that every day. Instead, you will likely run into people who disdain the place you grow up and the culture that you hold dear.

“You live in Imperial Valley, that hot dusty ugly place,” they’ll say. “Is it true that all they do out there is grow cows?” Some will turn up their noses and laugh with derision, as if the place they’re from makes them superior to you.

Be Proud of Who You Are

But let me remind you; it doesn’t make them superior to you. Don’t ever be ashamed of where you are from. Don’t betray your home town like I did. I’m confessing. When people asked me where I was from, I would often meekly say, “San Diego.” But now I know better. Whoever criticizes you for being from here is just showing their ignorance. You are the 5th generation of pioneers who courageously and tenaciously settled this valley over a hundred years ago.

When the pioneers brought water here in 1901, they jump started one of the quickest and most massive creation of a farming oasis in the history of the world. They cleared land, not with giant tractors, but with mules and scrapers. And then they worked the land, planting and picking the food to feed our nation. We’re a very young area, one that is still growing and improving. It’s a grand and noble enterprise, and maybe in just a small way, you are a part of it now and maybe a bigger part of it in the future.

So be proud of who you are, of the people who love you and the community that has supported you. They are worthy, and you are worthy of respect, even though you may not always get it.

Yes, going away to college is going to be a shock—sometimes exciting and sometimes frustrating. You may be sitting in your dorm room trying to concentrate on the book before you—statistics or calculus or US history or Political Science, and suddenly your realize how alone you feel. I was like that. I felt the tug of mother love, and came home on the weekend, but nothing was the same--the hubbub and excitement of high school was long gone. And when I came back to school on Sunday, my dorm mates said, “Where were you, man? We had a fire down at the beach and a great touch football game on the lawn. Last night we got a party going over in De Anza hall. Hey, you should have seen Carmen dancing! 'Oye Como Va—mi ritmo'."

I had missed out!

Get Support

If you do get homesick, if classes seem tough, what should you do? There’s so much going on at the university. There’s something for everybody. For your social life, make friends with your dorm mates. You might be sad. You might want to curl up in the comfort of your room. But when someone invites to you to an activity, don't say no. Say yes. Say yes to your new life. Give it a chance.

You may be shy in your classes; make an effort to introduce yourself: “Hi my name is __, What’s yours?" If the classes get tough, form a study group. See a counselor. Tutors are free at the university. Join a club. Play intramural sports. Don’t let yourself get isolated and alone. When I took a statistics class that turned tough quickly, I got together with some of my classmates. We just did our homework together, that's all. In the cafeteria after lunch. That's all it took. We all ended up with A's.

Your Dignity Doesn't Require Silence

You may be shy. You may have what in Spanish we call vergüenza,. I used to hear this from my students, “Ay, no puedo hablar; tengo vergüenza.” We have two words for vergüenza in English: embarrassment and shame. Yes, perhaps you feel embarrassed to ask a question in class, or to ask a classmate to share her notes with you. Embarrassment is a feeling of awkwardness, of vulnerability. Shame is something else; it’s when you lie, you break a promise, you do something to hurt someone else. Those are causes for shame. But embarrassment is transitory, temporary, and the price you pay in a quick bout of embarrassment is growth. The greatest achievements come from repeated conquering of those awkward, vulnerable feelings that we call embarrassment. There’s no shame in reaching out to make a friend and no regret for your good intentions.

The Big University: New Support—New Network of Connections

And that brings us to why you need to stay at the university: going to college is like stumbling upon a whole new landscape, and whole new planet. I have tried to warn you, fellow students from a small town, about some of the obstacles you may face. But that’s just one side of the coin. There’s the flip side—the wondrous, awesome side. At the university you will overhear many languages in the cafeteria that you have never heard before—and you may want to learn one of them. You will meet people from different cities, states, and countries, places you never knew existed. You may meet the son of a diplomat from Libya or Lichstenstein or Siberia or Manila. You will tell them about the fascinating world of life here along the border and they will share with you their own tales of life in exotic places. Their clusters of glowing, supportive fibers like we saw in the movie Avatar will mix with yours.

In the classroom, you will share the knowledge that people have been debating and accumulating for centuries, with other students and professors who bring a passion for the excitement of learning. You’ll become part of what we call the Great Conversation, a dialogue that we hope you will join and never, ever leave.

IVC Is An Option

Now, I would be remiss, as a professor from a community college, not to tell you this. If you do feel you need to come home to grow up a little, you can certainly come back to Imperial Valley College. We’ll take care of you. We have small classes, counselors, tutors in every field. You may have already visited our brand new, state of the art laboratory science building—one of the most energy efficient buildings on a college campus in the state. I have taught at IVC for 23 years, and I believe in IVC. You can get a great education: We’ll take care of you, we’ll nurture you until you’re ready to take flight into your next challenge.

Serve Yourself—Serve Your Family

In our country, you’re not required to go in the army or do social service like in many countries. You can strike out on a journey of your own choosing, to serve your family and yourself. Go on, take a chance. Prepare yourself for an exciting era of expansion and growth. See how far you can go. You won’t leave your family behind; you will bring back your reports, your excitement, your knowledge and wisdom. You won’t cut the cords of family ties; you will plug into many more energy sources, gaining knowledge, wisdom, and stories to share.

Bring them home and make them yours. The chance is yours; take it!


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Tuesday, January 5th

A Homeless Man With a Story


Counting on a Pot of Gold

Brian McNeece

“Can you spare a dollar?”

I looked past my plate of carnitas. I was sitting outside of El Campeon a block from the famous mission of San Juan Capistrano. The voice came from an earnest face wearing a trimmed beard, a soiled ball cap, and the ubiquitous heavy coat of a person living on the streets.

“No, but you can have a taco,” I replied. I plopped some meat into a tortilla and pushed a plate and a cup of salsa across the table. Then I smelled the smoke. “But you can’t sit here if you’re smoking,” I added quickly.

“All right,” he said agreeably as he dropped the cig on the ground and stepped on it.

In less than a minute, I had gone from being lost in a reverie to dining with a vagrant. He ate daintily.

“It’s the new year,” he said. “And my birthday’s comin’ up.”

“Happy birthday,” I said.

“Next week I get $2.5 million.”

I must have worn the classical skeptical look, so he immediately began his narrative. “I was hit in a crosswalk. We sued the lady for $7 million, settled for five. My hospital bill was $664,962.46.” He recited the number very slowly, consulting the clouds. He seemed especially proud of hearing himself say the number right down to the penny. “The lawyer gets a third, so I’m down to $2.5 million.”

All right, I can play. “What are you going to do with the money?” I asked.

He sighed. “I don’t know. I really don’t know.” He seemed truly perplexed.

Now that we were friends, I thought it appropriate to advise the biggest cash-rich person I had ever met. “Listen,” I told him quietly. “Don’t be like those athletes who blow their signing bonuses. Don’t live large. Buy a small car.”

“I can’t drive,” he said. “I lost my license. I’ll just buy a limo.” He smiled, a little crookedly.

“You’re loaded, aren’t you?” I said.

He nodded. “Yeah, I’ve been drinking. Smoked some weed too. Do you want some?”

“No thanks. You from around here?”

“I’m homeless, man,” he said with plenty of self-pity. “I got a spot across the street. I don’t leave trash.”

“What about a shelter?”

He didn’t answer. I noticed that after two bites, he’d stopped eating.

“Too many rules?” I asked.

He looked away. “Yeah, one rule. They don’t allow drinking, and I like to drink.”

“You drink every day?”

He nodded.

“All day?”

He nodded again.

“Have you been through the 12-step program?”

“Yeah, I’ve done that. Had to, to avoid jail time.”

“Don’t you feel like crap in the morning?”

He shook his head. “Not if I have a cold one next to me. Then I’m golden. When the man shows up at the liquor store with his key, I’m right behind him. I love to drink.”

He lit up another cigarette. The wind lifted the smoke away from me, so I didn’t object.

“She has three houses,” he said.

“Who?”

“The lady I’m suing. My lawyer, she says I could get all of them. ‘We can take everything,’ said my lawyer. ‘Even the kids.’” He chuckled. “I just want one of them houses. Thirty-eight hundred square feet, with a pool.”

The sensible advisor in me couldn’t resist jumping in again. “Do you realize the maintenance costs on a house like that? You ought to sell that house and buy a small one. You want that money to last you twenty years.”

He shook his head again. “I’m not going to live twenty more years. I drink too much. I smoke too much dope and cigarettes. Nah, I’m not gonna live that long.” He grimaced and coughed. “I’m a f#*&-up. I know it. I’m 48 years old, and I don’t have a lot of years left.”

“I’m 58,” I said, “And I was in the hospital this morning.” I showed him the plastic ID bracelet on my wrist. “I’ve got cancer, but I plan to live a long long time.” (Actually I HAD cancer, but I powered up the story to get his attention.)

“Well, I’m sorry to hear that,” he said sadly, puffing on his cigarette. “I wish you well, bro.” He was on the verge of an attack of self-pity, but he shook it off. “Next week, I’ll be a millionaire, and I’m going to have a great time.

I stood up. “You leaving?” he said, like a man accustomed to unhappy partings.

“Yep.” I cleaned up my trash and his, and reached for my wallet. “Here’s a dollar. Next time I see you, I want a hundred back.”

He clasped a grimy hand on my shoulder and gave me a look of deep nostalgia. “Thank you, brother.”

A dollar for a story like that? Worth every penny.



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Thursday, December 10th

My Commencement Speech Inside the Prison


To the Inmates At Centinela State Prison--Jewel of the Desert
Brian McNeece

Good morning and congratulations. Congratulations on completing your GED. Felicito a todos por sus logro de haber cumplido el GED. Les felicito sinceramente. You now have the equivalent of a high school diploma, but I would suggest that it is much more than that. Only 60% of high school graduates can pass the GED test. Last night I was looking online at what is tested, and I answered a few questions. You know what? They weren’t that easy, so my hat’s off to you. You may have been told that only 37% of high school dropouts can get steady work. You’re no longer part of that group, so congratulations.

I don’t know anything about you or your particular situations for being here or your motives for completing an important step in school. But I do know a lot about education and learning. As was mentioned in the introduction, I have three college degrees, and actually I would probably have more if I lived near a university and didn’t have the financial burden of three children.

I enjoy learning very much. In fact, you might say that I’m an avid apostle in the Church of Learning. When finals come around, and my students are bowed over their desks writing their best, I see them as if the classroom was a church, and the final exam was a sacred moment. Their effort to gather their intellectual resources and make sense of some body of knowledge is the very act that raises them up a notch, that grows them in ability to think and communicate with themselves and the rest of the world.

I believe in God, and I believe in prayer, but praying to God is an act of humility and surrender of a different kind. Going to school or embarking on a project of learning to me is a practical prayer. If you have cancer, you certainly should pray to God, but you’ll be directly effective in your own healing if you learn about cancer and the drugs used to treat it. Learning is mankind doing what God gave us to do—think and learn to manage our lives and our worlds. To me, learning is sacred.

Why do we have this ceremony today? That in itself is worth commentary. For society doesn’t congratulate you through a formal ceremony for a lot of things that are worth doing. Get to work on time every day for a year? Your boss doesn’t give you a certificate. Take out the trash at home conscientiously for several months? Nobody says anything. Nobody honors you for good dental hygiene or keeping your quarters neat and tidy. Yet finish your GED and everybody cheers you on. Way to go. Attaboy!

Why is that? Because you have set a goal and achieved it, and society loves that process. You have learned something, and in that you have grown. You are more than you were. You have pulled yourself up away from randomness to order. You have made a decision to engage your ability to pay attention and pursued it. In other words, you have made a step forward and upward in the thing we called civilization. In that, everyone benefits, not just you.

Because that’s what civilization is: the sum total of all the people’s knowledge and cooperation as it is built up over centuries and centuries of learning.

And when I say centuries and centuries, I don’t mean that in an abstract or collective way–I mean you, sitting there in your seats. You may think that who you are is complete in that chair. You may think that you are as quick and agile as a panther, you can stop and start on a dime. You can move at a moment’s notice. In fact, you’re more like a giant oil tanker plying the ocean. For who you are has an inertia and a momentum than not only goes back to your childhood but to your parents and their parents and so on.

I teach linguistics, which means that I’m a student of languages. The more I know about language, the more astonished I am that humans can use it so effortlessly. By the time you’re four years old, you’ve mastered the entire grammar of at least one language, and often more than one. If you had to study English for your GED, you’ll know how confusing it is. You know the language perfectly; English classes force you to be able to talk about what you know—like what’s a noun a verb a subject a predicate and so on.

My point is that the language you learn is thousands of years of layers old, yet you learn it effortlessly. In the same way, you learn all the things it is to be human. In your family, you learn to like and dislike certain foods, you have a voice accent, you have gestures that mark you as your parents’ sons, you have a style that your family gave to you.

So that’s why when you stare off into your future, you may see open waters or rocky shoals, but changing your course ain’t easy. You have a lot of inertia behind you. And the older we get, the more we realize that. We’ve got all the momentum of our past behind us, and our habits bad and good to weigh us down or propel us forward.

Getting your GED has made a correction in your direction for that oil tanker. Just like your parents and their parents set the stage for you; what you do now does that for those who come after you. By getting your GED you’ve put your boat slightly in a better course. Your kids will see that; your loved ones see that; everyone around you will see that. Your job now is to keep that energy going to adjust the direction. Only 37% of high school dropouts have steady work; you have now officially rolled yourself out of that group by getting a GED. With a few more corrections you’ll be in another, more successful group of learners.

I can tell you a little of my own story. In the intro you learned that I have three college degrees. Three of my grandparents were laborers, one in a factory and the other two in the fields. But my grandmother had been to college, so when she got married to my grandfather, they decided that all five of their kids would go to college. So when I came along, it was a given. I didn’t know it until much later, but it was as if my daddy had raised me up on a tall ladder. I thought that was the normal view. Where most people had to start climbing from the ground, I was almost to the top already. My dad paid for college and that went okay, but when I got out I started slipping, because I didn’t know what I had. Before too long I had no money, no job, and some bad habits.

You see, my oil tanker had slowed almost to a crawl and it started to drift. I didn’t realize that I had to make my own course at that point. Luckily for me, I started making some small corrections. It took me fourteen years to get my masters degree, but I did it. And then, once my ship was set on course, I got another masters degree in just two more years and three summers—going to school part time.

My mother in law didn’t start going to college until she was 36; by the time she was done, she had a doctorate and was vice-president of the school where I work. (Luckily she’s retired now.)

So what’s next for you? I hope to challenge you to continue, if not in school in any other project. Keep making corrections.

I know there are obstacles ahead of you, deep and difficult chasms to cross and tough terrain to navigate through. I know. Some men are naturally born to be warriors. Maybe that’s one of the reasons you are here. Inside you is the drive to be the alpha dog, to demand and get respect, to push to get what you want when you want it. It comes with the genetics that once again is part of our past going way back. But the ways of the hunter warrior don’t work too well in modern times.

Who are the alpha dogs today? Well, Bill Gates of Microsoft and Warren Buffet are among the wealthiest men in the world, yet to meet them you might think they were Episcopalian ministers. Barack Obama is now the most powerful man on earth, but he never raises his voice. Sure. Soft guys all of them. But brainy, educated, and restrained. So one of the challenges you face is to learn to tame yourself, to learn self-control and discipline. Become a disciple to channeling your energy into learning and thought instead of feeling and action.

Another barrier to achievement is the simpler problem of forgetting. If I could only remember why I’m doing what I’m doing, I would have written ten books by now. But I’m a victim of my own tendency to distraction, and much of my time is just for my own amusement. It doesn’t take me anywhere. Someone wise and famous once pointed out to me that the only thing we have the least chance of controlling is the contents of our own thoughts. And even then, it’s pretty tough.

We constantly forget what we’re supposed to be doing. And so all of us need reminders of our goals and our dreams and our purposes. One way I try to monitor the way I spend my time and the content of my mind is to ask myself—what did I do today that moved me forward in life? Was I proud to have watched the whole Chargers game. Well, actually I was prouder of having mowed my lawn or planted my garden or hugged my wife. Was I proud of getting frustrated with my students because they come to class unprepared. Well, I was prouder when I kept my good humor and saw that they were paying attention.

Paying attention—that’s work. And once again, that’s why we’re honoring you today. Making the decision of where you’re going to move that power of yours, your attention, to a higher purpose, that’s big. That’s good, that’s great.

So watch out for the warrior in you and the distracted part of you. Challenge yourself now with another project. Start up with community college and get an Associates degree. One step at a time. If school is not for you, pick something else. Write it down, put it on your wall, tell a friend, tell your loved ones what you want to accomplish. Create a group of allies to help you remember your purpose.

You’ve made a correction in the direction in the giant oil tanker that is you. One notch in the compass at a time, and keep that mojo working.

bmcneece@adelphia.net">bmcneece@adelphia.net">brian on 12.10.09 @ 11:23 PM PST [link]


Cal-Trans Hear My Gripe


All I want is a smooth, smooth road
Brian McNeece


A couple of years ago, Caltrans resurfaced a section of I-8 between Highway 111 and Westside Road. Since I often drive that stretch, I watched the project in all its stages. I was very surprised that it was being resurfaced at all, since the freeway was in very good condition. Then when the new coating turned out to be much rougher and grittier than the surface it was replacing, I and many others figured that a smooth, final coat was going to be applied. Then the lane lines were painted, and we all realized that we were wrong.

Besides being rough, the new surface is very loud. When you hit that section of road, you need to turn the radio way up and shout at your traveling companions to be heard. That resurfacing was a quick fix of something that wasn’t broken. Be forewarned; there’s more to come.

Aside from being a motorist, I am also an avid cyclist with the Imperial Valley Velo Club. We often pedal past the farm area in the southwest corner of Imperial County to get to Highway 98, where west of the Brawley Main canal, it is the best road for cycling in all of Imperial County--the promised land for cycling. The surface is smooth, the shoulder is wide, and the terrain undulates uphill across ruggedly beautiful vistas near the border.

We’re accustomed to riding out to a cross on a hill that we call the “The Oasis” because of a few palm and other trees at its base. There we bask in the glory of the Yuha wash and the mountains to the east, and we give thanks for Highway 98. As you know, Imperial County roads are more mindful of some Central American banana republic than the USA. They’re full of fissures, ridges, potholes, and gouges from farm implements. Some are so weathered and crumbling as to suggest that a civilization has abandoned them.

So Highway 98 was a godsend to give thanks for. I emphasize WAS. Several weeks ago, we were astonished to see that 21 miles of our smooth, wide, undulating road is now also covered with that same coarse surface as that section of I-8 with many loose rocks. From the cyclist point of view, the vote is in: they’ve ruined it.

Since then, I’ve spoken to our local superintendent of Caltrans, Mr. Pascual Aceves, who explained to me that the coating is known as chip seal, a durable and relatively inexpensive way to coat a road. “We have to protect that road bed,” he said. “We have to protect our investment.”

There’s something amiss in this policy, something backward. It’s like putting a rough blanket on a fine leather sofa or a plastic liner on a rug. You’re protecting it, sure, but you’re reducing its quality in many other respects.

It’s ironic that the word of the day is Green: to wean ourselves from foreign oil, we need high mileage cars. Yet the rougher chip seal surface will surely lower mileage. We need to clean the air; chip seal will produce more debris and dust in the traffic corridor. Tires won’t last as long, and I’ve already mentioned the offensively high noise level.

Caltrans told me that the section of I-8 between Ocotillo and Westside Road will soon receive a chip seal coating. That’s bad news, since the current road surface is smooth and quiet.

There’s a quixotic sidebar to this story. On this morning’s bike ride, I came across a lone man walking on Highway 98 about 5 miles west of Mt. Signal. At first I thought he might be an illegal alien. I stopped to speak to him and learned that he was a New Englander on a personal quest to ride his skateboard across the United States. He had started in Rhode Island in March and was just 100 miles from his destination. His first question for me: “What’s with this road?” The chip seal had kept him from riding his skateboard down the highway as he had been doing across most of the United States.

I asked Caltrans if they would put chip seal on a freeway in San Diego. “No,” Mr. Aceves answered without hesitation. “Too loud, and too much debris. Here in the Valley we can sweep the shoulders as the gravel loosens.”

The roadways in California and across the nation used to be something we were most proud of. The interstate system was the pride of the world. Not anymore. I hope individuals, local businesses, and the chambers of commerce might protest to Caltrans and ask for a final, smooth coat on top of the chip seal.

We and all the truckers and travelers passing our way deserve the same high quality road surfaces as any place else.

bmcneece@adelphia.net">bmcneece@adelphia.net">brian on 12.10.09 @ 11:08 PM PST [link]


Tuesday, August 11th

Still Free to Break the Rules in Baja


Irrepressible Utopian Lawlessness in Popotla, B.C.

Brian McNeece

My friend Randy threaded his Jeep through a line of parked cars along a narrow, rutted dirt road toward the small fishing village of Popotla just south of the wall of the Foxploration studios in Baja California. It’s a ritual he’s been following all summer to supply his evening meal with fish so fresh that it slept in the ocean--this morning. Like the village of Puerto Nuevo two generations ago, Popotla has sprung up casually from a group of spindly, dilapidated tiendas on the cliff above the water and a quarter mile cove of sandy beach.

Every morning a dozen pangas bring in whatever the sea offers to sell right out of the boat or off wooden tables on the beach. Today, there’s all manner of rockfish, some 20 pound yellowtail tuna, sea urchin, sea bass, crabs, clams, oysters, and lobsters out of season. All along the beach, other vendors are at the ready to clean and fillet your fish--even fry it if you like. There are oysters to be shucked and prepared with onion, tomato, salsa, and fresh lime, 10 pesos each or a dollar, whatever you got in your pocket. Pick your fish; whatever it is, you’ll pay about 35 pesos a kilo or around a $1.22 a pound. A dollar goes a long way here.

By 10:00 a.m. this Sunday, the beach is nearly full of cars, and they’re still streaming in. This is perhaps the main draw. Vans and pickups abound with kayaks, umbrellas, bicycles, motorcycles strapped to the roof or filling the rear ends. Visitors are very sanguine; this morning I see a nearly new Mercedes sedan plowing through the soft sand passageway that funnels the cars onto the sandy stretch. Every other kind of car finds its way to spend the day a few yards from the surging sea.

This is the beauty of Mexico. In the US, once an activity is found to be the least bit risky or of potential annoyance to someone else, it’s banned. Apparently not here. Just about anything goes. Part of the Mexican character is to be more than tolerant of a wide variety of happenings. If there’s a guy changing his tire on the narrow entryway and partially blocking the route in, everyone else just blithely waits his turn. Just because a two-lane road has become a one-lane road, don’t worry, be happy. Traffic clots up at the entrance to the beach. No sweat; we’ll work it out.

The vendors seem to form a happy cooperative. When one guy needs to weigh a fish to charge his customer, he carries it by the tail over to the neighboring stand and plops it on the scale.

What else is for sale at Popotla? A crowd anywhere means business opportunities. The popsicle man rings his bell and pushes his cart over mounds of drying kelp. Get a mango on a stick with half a lime impaled atop it. Don’t like the glare on the beach? The sunglass man has a beautiful array of glasses in his fold up display case. Or get a hat from the tiny hat lady wearing her wares about 10 high on her head. With her free arms, she’ll sell you necklaces, bracelets, or wind chimes made from shells. A youth not out of his teens rolls a wheelbarrow type mechanism displaying a series of cubicles filled with Mexican candies of every color.

The place seems to be infused with a casual sensuality, a place where everyone can let their hair, and other body parts, down. Most of the women wear very light, flimsy blouses that don’t leave much to the imagination while still being properly opaque. The fishermen are mostly men, while the little colorful puestos selling oysters and clams are run by women. There’s a languid side to the busy-ness of the vendors and the visitors to the beach, and lots of smiles.

I take a quick jog down the beach. Dome tents are tucked up against the 15-foot bluff for protection against the sea breeze. Pop shades and even carports create an instant zone of influence. Music blasts from cars. Umbrellas, tables, and backyard grills create an instant beach side city. Kids play soccer, ride bicycles. Dog frolic in the waves while just past the smoothly breaking faces, another trio scamper in the cove on Jetskis. It seems that whatever you want to do, you can do it in Popotla.

This is what I thought till I chanced to actually read the large sign that guards the entrance to the cove. I shouldn’t have been surprised, but just about everything I’d just rejoiced at seeing was in fact banned by the authorities. In both English and Spanish, beachgoers were forbidden from driving on the beach (the stated fine was $36-1800 dollars--ten to 500 times the minimum daily wage). Perhaps one hundred cars had defied that order. Also banned: glass containers, dogs, bicycles, beach fires, fireworks—you name it—it was banned. Might as well have been in Mission Beach, where the boardwalk is adorned by bulleted lists of No, No, and No. (At the bottom some frustrated Mission Beach visitor had added, “No Fun!”)

Luckily for me and the several hundred revelers this Saturday, this being Mexico, no one is paying attention to the rules. Randy drives his jeep out onto the beach and pulls in about fifty yards into the maelstrom for a quick and easy approach to “Mariscos Mary's”—a seafood stand with five-foot Mary at the helm. Randy is a regular there. As we pull in, two of her young male workers look through the window, “Oh, a new guy!” they exclaim (in English). We make a beeline for Mary’s stand, where she efficiently is opening oysters and clams for a line of eager customers.

Mary can shuck an oyster effortlessly. Since I have impaled myself a couple of times with an oyster knife, and Randy has never wanted to risk his dentist hands to open one, we watch Mary carefully to learn her secrets. First she takes a large kitchen knife, and with the butt edge breaks off a little of the oyster across from its hinge point. Then she inserts a small paring knife into the slit she has made and slides the knife to the side. The oyster opens right up. Randy has an “aha!” moment. “She cut the abductor muscle!” he says. No strength needed with this method, and no risk of stabbing the palm of your hand. She’s a master, and now we know how to become one too.

On the sand in front of Mary’s stand sit three tables with plastic chairs and umbrellas. The tables are topped with baskets full of saltine crackers, tostada crisps, salt, pepper, napkins, and a whole array of bottled salsas. At the table next to us, a couple is settling down to some serious partying. A thin woman in a loose tank top is pouring tequila into a paper cup filled with Squirt.

I ask the waiter, Chuy, why the name “Mary’s’ and not “Maria’s.” “’Mary’ sounds better than Maria,” he tells me in English, as he replenishes our basket of crackers. We leave it at that.

New entertainment has begun next door. A guy in a Ford Ranchero circa 1969, is trying to back off the soft sand, but his wheels keep digging in, and the trench they’re digging prevent him from moving laterally enough to clear the parked cars on both sides. He’s getting plenty of advice from the waiters, fishermen, and tourists who are watching. About the same time that Randy and I look at each other, someone yells, “Get the guy in the Jeep to pull him out!” in Spanish. In a flash, we’re out of our chairs and into rescue mode. Randy has a nylon tow strap wrapped around a high-lift jack on his front bumper. Before I can get to it, another Popotla fellow traveler has begun unwinding it. One of his compas (buddies) has taken a pin out of Randy’s bumper, and together they immediately connect the two vehicles. I post myself behind to keep errant toddlers out of the way, and in a jiffy the Ranchero is freed up.

All the while, cars have been streaming in. The candy man, the hat lady, dogs, bicyclists, motorcyclists, are passing in front of and behind our rescue project. Now a musical combo, complete with charro outfits, enters the scene. They stop at the table of the tequila-sipping couple and fire up accordion, violins, guitar and a couple of trumpets. Everything happens in Popotla.

Since we’re in rescue mode, our team also extricates a weary looking matron in a late model sedan that heavily dug into the sand. We then set to our business of buying dinner. Randy, an old hand, sits on the tailgate of a pickup with the clam vendor and his gunny sacks full of two varieties of large clams. They look like old friends enjoying the hubbub. I elbow my way through a crowd alongside a beached panga. The bottom of the open fiberglass boat is full of foot-long fish, some silver, some darkly striped. Patrons are picking their own fish and attempting to get the attention of three fishermen who are sharing one handheld, spring loaded scale.

What kind of fish is that? I ask one of the fishermen. “Mojarra,” he answers. “It’s seabass,” says one of the many bilingual folks next to me. Actually, I thought lenguado was seabass. “How about that one?” I ask pointing to one of the few striped fish. “Mojarra,” says the fisherman. “They’re all mojarra,” he continues. That’s helpful. How much? 35 pesos a kilo. Everything is 35 pesos a kilo. I grab three fish. Somebody hands me a plastic shopping bag. I dump them in and try to get the guy’s attention. He hooks my bag to a very weathered brass scale and asks me what it says. The letters are tiny and the whole thing is so corroded that I have to grab the scale and turn it in the daylight to make out the numbers. Finally I see the numbers—it’s in pounds, and my fish weigh about four of them. “Ah,” I say, “I guess it’s two kilos.” Turns out the fisherman can’t see his own scale and has to rely on the testimony of his customers to tell him how much to charge. “Seventy pesos,” he states, then throws one more small fish into my bag to seal the deal. “Sale,” says I. “Done.”

Our buying done, we get in line in 8” deep sea water sloshing around our tires, but something’s wrong. Nothing’s moving. I get out of the Jeep and go to investigate. The funnel point of the entrance to the beach is blocked by a Cherokee trying to back one of the pangas up the steep slope next to the entranceway, finished for the day. Finally, the panga is put away and the Cherokee pulls out. But we now have a new problem. The cars trying to get in and the cars trying to get out are beak to beak, with no room to move.

I wander uphill along the line of stuck motorists. Oh there’s something different. A Ford Explorer carries a carload of happy revelers, but wait, that’s odd. The driver and the passenger are both very large-boned in the face. Unlike most of the women on the beach, these two wear nice makeup and have their hair up. Elegant earrings dangle, the baubles show off the lovely brown skin of their perfect complexion and bare shoulders. But that’s strange; something just a little too large and rough gives them away; they are both rather good-looking men. In the spirit of Popotla, I smile.

Moving further back into the clot of cars, I see the problem: folks trying to get in have taken the entire middle lane, so no one can get by to get out. I start telling motorists to move over. If everyone cooperates, the wide two lane road (with cars parked on both sides, aimed in both directions) can be a perfectly serviceable four-lane road. The security people seem befuddled; it’s not until I move down the line of cars trying to get recalcitrant motorists to move over that they follow suit.

I return to the top of the cove, where a hawker waves a menu at me and invites me into the corner restaurant. A short swarthy man in his late twenties or early 30s, Pedro assures me that the chef in his restaurant is special. “You’ll find dishes here that you won’t get anywhere else,” he tells me in good English. “Look at the house special.” Cars are coming in now, and he interrupts himself to invite them to turn his way and come inside. Others are doing the same. “They don’t know what to do,” he says with disdain. "They’re too pushy. I just tell them what we have. Once they come inside, they’ll be back.”
“How did you learn English?” is my obligatory question.

“I used to live in LA, had some trouble, came here. Now, I’m not leaving. I love it here. There’s good money to make here. People are doing well in Popotla.”

We’re on the way out with our clams and five fish, full of oysters and the unbridled entrepreneurial energy that is Popotla.

bmcneece@adelphia.net">bmcneece@adelphia.net">brian on 08.11.09 @ 06:25 PM PST [link]


Sunday, August 2nd

Bicycling High


I Found a New Drug
Brian McNeece

I was in a criterium race once in San Juan Capistrano that really opened my eyes to the extreme efforts of bike racing. Each lap included four right turns around a couple of long blocks on an incline. I was (and still am) fairly novice in racing, and because I was old (52), I was having a hard time figuring out what category to enter. I chose the 40+ Cat 4 race for the simple reason that Cat 5s (raw rookies) are out of control and I had already been ground up by the 45+ riders. I thought the Cat 4 40+ group might be a little less voracious. Wrong.

The race started at the bottom of the course, went slightly downhill into the first turn, then gently uphill for a quarter of a mile, then kicked up again after turn two. Turn three was the top of the course. The pace was furious right from the start. Looking back, given my lack of racing experience and only two years of riding a bicycle in “training” mode, I’m surprised I did as well as I did. I stayed with the pack for the first few laps. Then I slowly began to become untethered from the bunch--but not without a fight.

I attacked like a madman on the downhill and then scratched and clawed on the more gradual part of the uphill. But by the time I got to turn three, the pressure behind my eyes was setting off alarms and my lungs were begging me to give them a break. By the end of the race I was about half a lap behind, which was far enough that when I crossed the finish line, nobody gave me a look. I think I even raised my hand at the judges as I passed them. But the next race was already being staged, so I was officially invisible.

That was discouraging, demoralizing, downright humiliating. Some time after the race, I got an email with a link to race photos so I could buy a photo of myself. Despite my feelings of inadequacy, I was still interested enough to take a look. For some perverted reason, the photographer had placed himself at the top of the course to capture the expressions of the rider at the peak of their effort. In other words, all the photos showed human beings in the throes of excruciating agony. Brows were not furrowed, they were twisted. Teeth were not clenched, they were lock-jaw tight. And the eyes, that’s where pain really shows. The eyes were not looking at anything, they were staring at nothing. They were simply open and aimed at a spot on the road a few feet in front of the rider. The eyes saw nothing but revealed sheer terror, a total physical rebellion against a condition that the body can’t compute. This is what I saw when I looked at photos of all those guys who were way in front of me.

In the end, I was happy to learn that I wasn’t in any of the photos, so I was spared the additional shame of being in pain and way behind. But at the same time, I felt the satisfaction of knowing how much those riders had to suffer to stay ahead of me.

Thinking about races, one always returns to the question of why. What’s the attraction of that kind of pain? The constant intensity of these short races squeezes the element of strategy down to almost nil. Only the few guys with superior conditioning and talent aren’t working at their limit. The rest of us are keeping the gas totally floored for most of the race. And that means pain. We’re middle-aged guys; a lot of our contemporaries are done with exercise. Done. And if we do, it’s a jog or a swim, not a pell-mell revving up of the heart rate into the red zone.

Now that I’ve been riding and racing for several more years, I’ve been able to answer that question, at least for myself. Of course, there’s the basic challenge of comparing oneself to others, and the challenge of achieving a goal and stretching one’s limits. In some ways, one might call those factors some sort of neurosis signaling a lack of enjoyment in oneself. Plus, athletics is actually a crude measure of excellence compared to other pursuits like music and art. Getting good at riding a bike is no more complicated than being willing to crank the pedals around and around 40-80 thousand times a week, sometimes as hard as you can, but mostly at a moderate pace.

The main attraction, maybe, in the end, is something even more primitive. It’s just the endorphins. It’s just us humans in search of a better high. Racing to the limit like that pumps the heart, pumps the blood, pumps the brain to secrete that good stuff that makes it all worthwhile. But the blind terror of racing seems to be balanced by the unconscious sense of well-being afterward. The zombie in pain during the race is followed up by the zombie feeling good afterward. He’s so tired that he can’t quite focus on why he feels good, and that’s why he signs up again for the next race, in a puzzled search for the origin of the good feelings mixed with the memories of extreme effort.

In other words, I’ve decided that racing isn’t the way to maximize the loveliness of turning pedals.

Every Friday we have a group that rides 46 miles across the farmland and up an undulating road into the desert. Every training ride has its rhythms that every group develops, moments of chatting and moments of pace line reverie and moments of competitive sprints up a hill or to a sign or across a line on the pavement.

Last Friday, the 31st of July we started at 5:45 a.m. as usual. The sun had not yet hit the horizon, yet the thermometer in the desert of southeast California marked 85 degrees, the usual low for this time of year. Just three of us showed at the meeting place, as Matt was working one of his usual weeklong shifts as a pilot for Fed Ex. Ray had escaped to Lake Tahoe for the summer. Gary was in Michigan visiting his daughter. The other three or four semi-regular riders had their own reasons for finding something else to do at 5:45 am, probably sleeping. This time of year, enthusiasm for cycling in the desert drops off a cliff. We’re the diehard sunrise group; there’s also a small group the rides after work, hitting the pavement at 5:30 p.m. at the summit of the day’s heat. They’re insane. Illegal aliens are dying of heat stroke in the desert while some Imperial Valley cyclists head out in full regalia under a 110 degree sun. Totally nuts.

But even these maniacs are getting the endorphins that training rides more effectively deliver to a thirsty brain. On our ride, we modulate our effort between probably 65-85% of maximum. Each person takes his pull and decides how fast and how long to work at the front. Every transition is smooth; nobody has to jump to stay on a wheel. If you want to go 30 seconds or two minutes at the front, take your pleasure. Smooth smooth smooth. Normally, we sprint to the 23 mile turnaround point. At least I do. Many times I sprint and no one follows me, probably from the same motive that I’m proposing here: nothing to excess leads to a better outcome. Normally I sprint, but today I just hold the pace across the 400 meter marker, across the 200 meter marker, and across the finish line that is spray painted on the pavement. We roll to a stop another couple hundred meters down the road. We all find our spots to pee and then gather to comment on the subdued effort. Subdued and somehow a little sacred.

It’s more or less the same routine going home. The return trip undulates trending downhill but against a slight headwind. We start slow and then build up. The chatting once again dies away, and we pedal in silence for the next half an hour. Silence is golden. Do we think about anything? We do. But we also pay attention to our position to the wheel in front of us and the position of the wheel behind us and the direction of the wind and the condition of the road below and ahead and the possibility of a shit-for-brains driver killing us in a moment of neglect at the wheel. And we daydream. And we pump endorphins.

Last week Fred got dehydrated. We slowed way down to help him get home. Unaware that he wasn’t drinking enough water, Fred felt leg cramps that started as just rumors, then graduated to hints, gave birth in murmurs, and finally shouted out—no more pedaling. Five miles from home, his legs froze up from hip to toe, and he had to attempt an excruciating dismount. Todd demanded that Fred drink down all remaining water. Orlando and I paced Matt back to his house so he could drive back to Fred stranded on the road with more water, a banana, salt, and a large dose of rest to get him home and back on the road to recovery. This Friday, Fred came equipped with a camelback full of water to supplement a water bottle on the bike. All went well, and we maintained a respectable 19 miles an hour average.

Three guys working as a team, mostly in silence for 2½ hours on the road, means a full day of a brain bathing in a gentle stream of natural high brought by the body’s own opium called endorphins. Fred was back in good form, shouting his usual "Oh Yeah!" as he attacked us up the slope coming out of Pinto Wash. Todd joked, “This is nothing. When I get home, I’m going to work out at the gym, you know pump some iron. Of course, that’s after I dig a few post holes. Later I’ll take the family to the pool.”

In my early days of cycling (circa six years ago), after a hard 33-mile group ride, I would spend half the day on the couch, totally spent. Todd was joking, but I wouldn’t be surprised if he did exactly what he mentioned. He’s a strong man partial to personal challenges. The body can do much more than we think it can. All of us diehard desert cyclists now have a nice base of conditioning to pump that healthy goodness after a session of cooperative riding.

Along those lines, after the Race Across America, one of the first comments to come out of the Type 1 Diabetes Team member’s mouth was, “I can’t believe my body could do what it just did” which was break the speed record in crossing the United States on a bicycle. His team rode the 3000+ plus route in five days nine hours and three minutes, averaging 23.38 miles per hour. I’ve had that feeling numerous times, though my achievements are much more modest. Still, when I can barely get out of car because of stiffness, and when the aches and pains of ordinary living make me feel like an old old man, covering 46 miles at 19 miles an hour makes me feel young and powerful. And unlike being in race mode, I can savor the moments in memory of how it all came about.

All this is why I’m not so discouraged and feel no anxiety about being less than pack-fill when I from time to time enter a race. As Tony Darr says, “Rule number one in cycling is have fun. Rule number two says see rule number one.” And look forward to those pleasant rides and a feeling of well-being that lasts and lasts.

bmcneece@adelphia.net">bmcneece@adelphia.net">brian on 08.02.09 @ 06:06 PM PST [link]




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